i needed the rehab to help me walk again. the bullet tore through my calf. my head was fine.
[ was it ever fine? sources unknown. ]
you don't want me to whisper this secret in your ear. do you remember how you fucked me in the baths after the wolf attack? i was bleeding. damn near delirious, but i didn't tell you that. you weren't in the best of shape, either. i liked it. loved it. that's what happened in the woods that night. ash fucked me with two bulletholes in my body, as punishment for my reckless actions. or something. that's only part of the secret. the rest is that i wanted it. i wanted it exactly like that, while i was high off morphine and bleeding and halfway delirious. that was my first time with him, after years of trying to convince myself i didn't want him. exactly the same as what you did to me.
that's why we worked. because maybe you didn't understand what i needed until right now, but you were still willing to give it to me. and i understood you. i didn't need commitment or coming out or any of that from you. i needed you to be exactly what you are. i just wanted someone else who wasn't pretending to be a good man.
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my head was fine.
[ was it ever fine? sources unknown. ]
you don't want me to whisper this secret in your ear.
do you remember how you fucked me in the baths after the wolf attack? i was bleeding. damn near delirious, but i didn't tell you that. you weren't in the best of shape, either.
i liked it. loved it.
that's what happened in the woods that night. ash fucked me with two bulletholes in my body, as punishment for my reckless actions. or something. that's only part of the secret. the rest is that i wanted it. i wanted it exactly like that, while i was high off morphine and bleeding and halfway delirious. that was my first time with him, after years of trying to convince myself i didn't want him.
exactly the same as what you did to me.
that's why we worked. because maybe you didn't understand what i needed until right now, but you were still willing to give it to me.
and i understood you. i didn't need commitment or coming out or any of that from you. i needed you to be exactly what you are.
i just wanted someone else who wasn't pretending to be a good man.
tell me to stop.