I do. I should have said something sooner. Didn’t wanna ruin it when we were happy, but at least then, I could have...
[ Could have been with him like this as he processed it? Hawk could be the one coping with too much to drink and Tim could be the one diligently at his side anyway, navigating through all his contradictions to offer him the tenderness he needs in a weak moment. Maybe that would have changed things, if he’d had the chance to prove that he can be a safe haven instead of another responsibility. How horribly selfish of him to even think, about someone else’s grief.
Tim matches the embrace, latching his arms around him tight. Hawk might wish he could take those words back, but he finds them endearing. A scrap of evidence that the one he loves isn’t all cynicism and disbelief, deep down somewhere lies a little morsel of faith. He pulls back just enough to look Hawk in the eye – beautiful, bright blue that makes his heart flutter, trying to ignore that – and cup his jaw gently, show him some sweetness before he breaks him a little more. ]
The papers said it was self-inflicted. In his office. [ Quietly, as if any more volume might add to the weight, make it unbearable. ] I don’t know why. A lot of rumors went around, but I don’t like that kind of gossip.
cw suicide talk
[ Could have been with him like this as he processed it? Hawk could be the one coping with too much to drink and Tim could be the one diligently at his side anyway, navigating through all his contradictions to offer him the tenderness he needs in a weak moment. Maybe that would have changed things, if he’d had the chance to prove that he can be a safe haven instead of another responsibility. How horribly selfish of him to even think, about someone else’s grief.
Tim matches the embrace, latching his arms around him tight. Hawk might wish he could take those words back, but he finds them endearing. A scrap of evidence that the one he loves isn’t all cynicism and disbelief, deep down somewhere lies a little morsel of faith. He pulls back just enough to look Hawk in the eye – beautiful, bright blue that makes his heart flutter, trying to ignore that – and cup his jaw gently, show him some sweetness before he breaks him a little more. ]
The papers said it was self-inflicted. In his office. [ Quietly, as if any more volume might add to the weight, make it unbearable. ] I don’t know why. A lot of rumors went around, but I don’t like that kind of gossip.