homosexuals | [UNI AU]

Read what you just wrote me again, Skippy. Temperatures are dropping, so what kind of asshole would I be sending you on a walk into campus?

You just keep that bed warm for me, yeah? And when I get back you’re gonna forget all about the idea of anything being cold when I’m through with you.

I'm used to it! New York is much colder than this and I've had to walk a few miles and back there for school before.

But your bed is very warm. I hope it's okay but I was a little cold so I grabbed the sweatshirt you were wearing last night.

[ before he absolutely took it off and they did other things to warm up in bed. ]

I’m in a car. I’ll get there twice as quick, snow or not. Besides - the storm isn’t even here yet. Though, you’d look awfully cute in this with a red little nose and movie snow. That’s what I used to call it when I was a kid.

…Just the sweatshirt?

Christ, I’ll step on it.

Movie snow? Why do you call it that?

[ it's endearing to learn more things about hawk when he was younger, the way he saw the world then and now. tim smiles reading it and does tip toe out to open the blinds, watching the big, fat flakes falling lazily from the sky.

he returns to the bed, bundling up. ]

I don't know, you'll have to wait and see when you get home, Hawk. But no speeding! It's icy out - you could slide around.

Because it doesn’t stick and it looks pretty. Used to call it that because of the latter, but now the cynicism in me thinks ironically the former fits too.

Am I gonna come home to my smell all over you? That would really drive a guy wild, storm or no.

I’ll be careful.

I like when it sticks to the ground and everything turns glittering and white.

Winter nights are always so quiet, like the whole world is peeking out of their windows to see it.

I didn't shower because you told me to stay in bed, you know. I'm not enjoying the snow like everyone else, so I smell like last night and you. If I lay on my side just right I can still feel the stretch.

Picture perfect, huh.

Well, it won’t be quiet when I get back - I’m gonna make sure of it. I don’t think I was really all that prepared for how loud you get. I love it.

What, you wanna go out and make snow angels? Don’t let me stop you. If I follow the speed limit you’ve got at least twenty minutes to kill.

Or you could sit and tell me how it feels. As good as you wanted it to be?

I had to be quiet before and I especially had to be quiet in your office. It was a little embarrassing the first time - I didn't know what to expect and it just felt so incredible.

Like it does now. That empty feeling but the stretch of you. My body remembers, but it's not as good as the real thing you know.

Also if I'm going to make a snow angel then I'm waiting - and we have to do it together. I know that's not very sexy to say when I'm feeling every ache of you, but. It could be fun. I used to love making them when I was little.

Guess I should have been considering it a blessing you’ve got a single. But I didn’t know what I was missing out on either.

…You’re sure it was alright like that? Still pretty floored that was your first. I would have - well, I just hope you know I don’t take that lightly.

Now that we’ve opened Pandora’s Box though you’re right. I doubt anything is gonna beat the real thing.

I knew I’d put that little excuse for a yard to good use someday, even without a pet. Snow angels when I get back, and then maybe I get the fire going and fuck you on the rug in front of it to warm back up.

Hawk, it was perfect. Better than I imagined it really and definitely better than everyone else makes it out to be. I'm glad it was you - I wanted it to be you. I like feeling you even when you're not here.

[ it will make going to class eventually following one of these nights distracting and difficult. even now when he squirms he can feel the dull ache. ]

I'll be greedy for once, like you always say I should. I want more of you. However you want - you know there's not a lot that will scare me away. Not with you. Never with you.

But maybe no fucking in the snow, I'll draw the line there. [ he's already grinning and maybe even giggling like a schoolboy. ] But I think we can come to an agreement on the rug. It's very soft.

I'll have to keep that in mind when class starts up again. Now that you're not one of my students - well, I hope you'll still be stopping by.

[he's not going to wax poetic about it, but there is a certain thrill to having been the first. the only - a voice inside him supplies unhelpfully, treading into a territory he's still not sure he should broach. ever, not with tim's whole future still ahead of him.]

Okay, shoot then. Be as greedy as you like. Nothing off limits.

After the snow angels and the fireplace, what's next? Radio is saying we might get as many as twelve inches overnight. I might swing by the store on the way home too, just in case.

A foot of snow? I'll cook for us if you get some staples!

But before cooking, I think we'll make some snow angels, warm up by the fireplace. I think I'll warm up even more by sitting in your lap. It might help warm you up, too. I wouldn't want you to get a chill from all the snow.

You a good cook, Skippy? I can whip up a decent meal now and then, but I’m no expert.

Perfect.

You know at this rate - we might be snowed in all week. Even up to Christmas Eve. Did you - have plans?

I like to think I am. I had to cook for my family a lot. We shared the load and my mother taught me a bit before I left.

[ he misses her. her and his sister. ]

What? Is it really sticking the way they say it will? I usually stay on campus, but no plans. Can I

Can I stay with you?

You all seem close. Is it hard? Not always going back for the holidays?

Looks like it, yeah.

As long as you haven’t got a better offer I don’t know about. Sure, you can stay.

[hawk just about winces, realizing that looks pretty callous in black and white. without the teasing note in his tone. so quick he tacks on:]

I mean - yeah. I’d like that. I’d like that a lot, Skippy. Don’t usually do more than hunker down, drink, and try to call my mother in between family dinners I don’t attend.

You like eggnog?

I miss them of course. But going home is difficult. My family doesn’t always agree on politics and social values.

I try to stay on campus for the winter break if I can make the money for it, that’s all. It’s easier.

[ and a little lonely, but he won’t say that out loud. it sounds pathetic. especially considering a year ago the way he had found out hawkins fuller was his contact.

hawks right the first message stings and tim begins to wonder if he should be making plans to get out of his plush bed until the next messages come through. ]

Eggnog is good. Especially after being out in the cold.

I’m making cocoa for you - or starting it up. It’s so cold outside.

[ he has to earn his keep, after all. ]

Yeah? Is that the first battleground for your impeccable debate skills? I'll bet you could hold your own. Except against your sister - she sounds... a little scary.

[hawk hates the idea of money being a factor in any of it. he hates the idea that tim is entertaining equally lonely strangers in the solitude of his room during the holidays just to get by when he should be with his family, or in the arms of someone who really appreciates what he's offering. it twists uncomfortably in his chest, almost like the heat of jealousy. a very bad, very dangerous thing.]

Add some peppermint for me, would you? I've got a few squares - middle shelf in the pantry.

You know...it's a nice change to have someone waiting for me. Could get used to it.

[hawk's lonely too.]

My sister isn't scary but she knows what she wants. She doesn't shy away from what she feels. I really respect her for it.

[ and he's been grateful for it when it's protected him from the harsher views his family might have. ]

Peppermint, of course. It'll be ready for you when you get in. It's the least I can do, but I like taking care of people. You cook for the people you care about. To me there's no better way to show that.

How far out are you? The roads aren't too dangerous, are they?

[UNI AU]

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