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𝚑𝚊𝚠𝚔𝚒𝚗𝚜 "𝚑𝚊𝚠𝚔" 𝚣. 𝚏𝚞𝚕𝚕𝚎𝚛 ([personal profile] homosexuals) wrote2024-01-18 09:11 pm

[POLITICAL AIDE AU]

AKA MATT BOMERCEPTION
a diplomat is a person who can tell you to go to hell in such a way that you actually look forward to the trip.
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[personal profile] hymen 2024-02-16 11:58 pm (UTC)(link)
[ hawk definitively tells on himself in that moment, even if it weren't for the lingering ache of their long-ago fuck, or the more recent memory of deft fingers around his cock, because morgan, despite her many, many flaws, is arguably one of the most attractive women he knows — emerald-cut eyes, silky black hair hanging down to her waist, a wardrobe that would make vogue look shabby. she's ash in one light, and embry in another, and irresistible most of all until she opens her goddamn mouth and starts talking about bombing children.

embry takes a drag of the cigarette, bracing himself with lungs full of smoke. there's something about being back home that makes him feel equal parts vulnerable and safe. even if vivienne moore might never be proud of him or understand his predilections, at least he knows she'd never abandon him because it would look awful in the press.
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Mr. Fuller. [ he smiles, his nose pink, the cigarette lingering near his lips. ] Are you coming out to me by saying you don't want to fuck my sister? More importantly, what are your thoughts on spanking? There's always time to misbehave, and you can draft up the backstory on the jet.

[ hawk is still a mystery to him, irritating at times but reliable, and it strikes embry in that moment that there's nothing steady in his life but him, not since he lost ash as his one solid pillar, the sun, the stars, and the whole goddamn sky gone in one fell swoop. it's more pathetic than it is inspiring, but he's grateful all the same that he isn't alone so he doesn't have to contemplate crawling into the lake anymore. ]
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[personal profile] hymen 2024-02-19 11:50 pm (UTC)(link)
[ so it's true. he already knew — had pretty hard proof, really — but there's a sense of satisfaction that comes with hearing it. washington isn't like seattle, or at least not the political side of it. it's not easy to simply be yourself when you have to think about whether it's going to plummet your numbers or not.

he could tell hawk about ash. he could tell him that he wanted to marry him, that he had the chance, twice, and fucked it up both times. merlin's words stick in his mind, gravel in his throat, and the desire passes. the less people that know the better, and besides, he's kept this secret for so long now that he wouldn't even know where to start to undo it. he's a bad lover, and even if there was a chance it wasn't a defect of his personality before all of this, it sure as hell is now.

there is one thing he can share, though, something that hawk might find out sooner or later if they end up back at lyonesse one day.
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If my partner wants it. I aim to be the best. [ he shrugs, tilting his mouth skyward and attempting a smoke ring. ] Don't get any ideas in your head, but I used to go to Lyonesse with a friend who was training to be a dom. I'm not so much into labels, but he needed someone to learn on, and I didn't have anything better to do.

[ hawk doesn't need to know that it wasn't a friend, it was ash, and it was after jenny's death, after embry had been wandering out in the cold for seven years while ash was happily married, and he'd been desperate to be back at his side and was happy to be beaten, whipped, and fucked into submission as part of ash's education. he'd sworn his allegiance to ash all over again, pledged to stay with him no matter what, and ash had to go and ruin it all over again with another proposal for embry's heart. a heart he can't give without destroying everything they've built.

so of course ash had gone and found someone more willing to be loved. embry turns his attention back to hawk, still puffing on the cigarette as if he has no intention of returning it.
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I like the fight. I wasn't very good at the submitting part. [ he offers hawk a sidelong grin. ] Too bad about Morgan. She's a brat and she likes to count.