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[holyposition]

I absolutely do. As long as I get the privilege of feeling it.

Thanks. I was in a little bit of trouble when it happened, so I wasn't there.

[ That's good. Smooth. Not hammering on incessantly about it like some people. ]

Alright, I will. But you've got to tell me what this Skippy thing is about.

[homosexuals]

[he's feeling pretty emboldened by this, so...]

Yeah? And where do you wanna feel it most? Tell me.

Shit. Wherever he was - I'm sure he knew you loved him, and you'd have been there if you could. You don't have to...but if you wanna talk about it now or even not now, I'd listen.

Take a guess and I'll tell you if you're close.

[holyposition]

Do I have to choose just one? The back of my thighs.

He did. I don't doubt that. But that's...depressing. We don't have to talk about that right now.

Some weird American thing I don't understand?

[homosexuals]

The backs of your thighs - they'd be a little raw by the time I was done with them, you know. Inside of 'em too. Athletes have big appetites.

You can choose another if you're a good boy. Go on.

Sure, something like that.

[holyposition]

[ How many days until Friday? Fuck, he's not gonna make it. ]

My pits, then.

I heard a rumor you love Italian boys. I hope I'm more than just your type.

[homosexuals]

Oh yeah, I'd spend awhile there. Memorize what you smell like when you're needy.

But...I don't think I'd stop there. Might need to take an up close and personal taste of your chest.

From who?

[he can't tell if tim is being coy, or if someone really spread something so patently untrue. there wasn't anyone since kenny. or well - not anyone he can remember. fire island is a blur, and august...that was just a dream, surely.]

They're wrong - you'd be the first.

[holyposition]

I'm sure you're used to that, all the hundreds of locker rooms you've been in.

The first since your partner? Really?

[ Forget everything else. A new wave of...something washes over him, and he's not sure what to call it. He's gonna settle on dread. ]

[homosexuals]

[he’s said something wrong - somewhere. maybe it’s too much too fast. he can slow it down again - and he doesn’t really want to talk about kenny right now anyway. there are times where it feels like he’ll drown in the guilt of still being here and thinking he’s found someone else.]

First Italian boy to catch my eye, is what I meant.

Locker rooms aren’t nearly so fun, trust me.

[holyposition]

Oh. Yeah, obviously.

I used to play football - not the American one. Not a single orgy. Still fantasized about it being more fun in the big leagues.

[homosexuals]

Obviously.

Oh? Soccer then. Those guys are all talk and all about themselves anyway. Swing and a miss.

But if you've got big dreams of being worn out...I might be able to help.

[holyposition]

"Soccer" sounds so stupid. Oh, some volleyball too. I had to change schools though.

I sure hope so. How's your knee?

[homosexuals]

Don't tell me - it's because you had half the school chasing you down after you put on those short shorts?

I'll live. Lucky for me, all my doctors ended up here too. Gonna have him look at it real quick before the gala.

[holyposition]

I blew up Father Mariano's car.

They did? That's lucky.

[ Shit. ]

[homosexuals]

Well…what’d he do to warrant the heat? Gotta be something.

Like a home away from home. It’s my first time here, even though Rosie’s my goddaughter. Funny timing, huh?

cw church abuse its the 00s and very public ok

[holyposition]

It was a Catholic school. He was transferring to mine from another one, after getting caught...you know. He wasn't welcome.

My family's been dragging me here for years. I'd still rather be at the beach, but I think it just got less boring. :)

[homosexuals]

Ah, hell. I'm sorry. That'd be upsetting to anyone. Did he - he didn't hurt you, did he?

It's no beach but the pool's pretty nice. I'd help you put on your suntan lotion and everything. ;)

[holyposition]

No, he didn't. But he would have hurt someone. You know what happens, right? They just transfer the creeps around. But I got expelled, the next school didn't have volleyball.

I find the lake's a little more private.

[homosexuals]

Yeah - you're right. You took a stand for something that mattered, and they chose to protect him. I'm not trying to pick at an old wound but - your parents didn't have your back?

That's their loss then. You'd look cute in tennis shorts, too, if we're keeping track.

Or nothing at all, if it's that private. I like being waterside. Sail sometimes, when the weather's good.

[holyposition]

They bailed me out of jail and got the charges dropped. That's where their generosity ran out. Thank you, though.

Not THAT private. Unless you've got more pull with the Balfours than I thought. Wouldn't mind modeling a thing or two for you, though.

You ever sail around in the Mediterranean? It's beautiful.

[homosexuals]

You know, you'd make a pretty hot jailbird. Just saying. ...Too soon?

Mm. Good to know.

[oh yes he does.]

...I did. Not that long ago, actually. Amalfi Coast and Sardinia, mostly.

[back when he was still mildly suicidal and in the papers for looking sad, lonely, and apparently after that asshole craig had leaked his breakdown on fire island, but that's not exactly a sexy thing to share with a kid who already has one foot out the door.]

Think it'd be a lot better with company.

[holyposition]

Not too soon, I was sixteen. But that wasn't the only time, so I guess I count.

[ He knows what's out there. Tim looked him up after they met at the party - he'd been too busy with school and activism to keep up with every last sports scandal. He'd observed the moment of silence for Kenny at his favorite gay club when the news broke, and hadn't thought about it much afterwards until meeting Hawk in the flesh.

Reading about what came after was...humanizing. Something to turn Hawk from icon to human being. Tim's got worse floating around the internet. Maybe it's not sexy, but if he thinks he’s ready to get back out there, who's he to argue? ]

An invitation already? You're bold. I like that.

[homosexuals]

Not the only time? What else got your feathers ruffled?

Fortune's supposed to favor us. But I'd take pretty brown eyes, glasses, and a floppy head of dark hair, if we're being honest.

[holyposition]

What do you mean? You don't read the news? There's always something. People want us dead, resources are being hoarded, they're killing the planet. Someone has to fight back. I'd do it even without a safety net, if I had to.

It's the glasses that get you going? Not the short shorts I caught you peeking at near the lake yesterday?

[homosexuals]

Course I do. It's part of the reason I've been outspoken my whole career and why I've got a pretty particular niche of philanthropy I try to focus on off the court. People will listen, and they'll tell you they care, but getting real action out of 'em can be a lost cause. But that doesn't mean we stop trying. I understand you.

What, can't it be both? The shorts were a real compelling part of it, I'll give you that. Chest too.

[holyposition]

You have been, I know. I prefer direct action.

You sure you contain yourself until Friday?